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May 29, 2003

So I'm leaving for Europe

So I'm leaving for Europe in half an hour! And despite having just started packing last night, I think I'm ready to go. The excitement has just started to grow; I'm sure that once I get on the plane, it'll really hit me that I'm going to be away for two and a half months.

The past couple days have been really hectic. It's mostly my fault--since school got out I didn't really do much to prepare for study abroad until just a few days ago. And I really didn't mind having to stay up late to pack, or make last-minute trips to the store to buy voltage converters, or any of that when it comes to material stuff. What I did mind was feeling rushed with people. These past couple days, whenever I talked to someone, I was usually distracted, worrying about I need to pack; I haven't been able to spend as much time with everyone as I would have liked, haven't been able to say goodbye to some people, haven't kept promises to have lunch or dinner with others.

So, everyone, I'm sorry I've been so... not-here. Especially when I really won't be here in just a few hours. But I'm sure you guys understand. Once I get to Oxford in four weeks, I'll have access to a computer lab, so I will be checking my email and such, and updating here, if I can find a chance. ;) Have a great summer, everyone. I'll see you in the fall.

May 28, 2003

See, I'm not the only

See, I'm not the only one that writes about worms.

May 24, 2003

I drove over to the

I drove over to the Fantastic Sam's by my house today, where Stacy got her hair cut a few weeks ago. The hairstylists all seemed to be nice, sweet ladies, which is why I decided to go there, but when I got to the shop a little after 4:30, there was a sign on the door: 5/24 - We will be closing at 5 pm today for the holiday weekend. I pulled open the door, poked my head inside, and asked the lady at the front desk, "Am I too late?"

She screwed up her face. "A little," she said apologetically. "Yes."

"It's okay," I said, "I can come back some other time."

"Come back Tuesday!" she called after me. "Ladies' cut for only $10.95."

"Oh, okay," I nodded. "I'll do that."

But I wanted to get my hair cut today, and I also realized that I might not have time on Tuesday, so I started driving to the State Bridge Kroger, where there's a SuperCuts that I've gotten my hair cut at before. On the way, though, I passed the Publix shopping center, and there was a Hair Cuttery, so I just decided to go there, since it was closer to home. Besides, I told myself, it'll be good to go somewhere I've never been. Character building.

So I parked the car and went inside, where one of the ladies told me to sign my name on the waiting list and take a seat, someone would be right with me. An 40s-ish guy was sitting by the window waiting, too, so I went over to the magazine rack and pulled out a magazine. I thought it was Cosmopolitan magazine, but I could only see the half the cover; it was CosmoGirl!, instead. I immediately felt silly when I pulled it out, especially when I saw that Christina Aguilera was on the cover. I said aloud--for some reason feeling the need to justify my magazine choice--"Christina... interesting." Then realized I was just being silly; the old guy sitting a few seats down from me didn't care, anyway. So I sat down, and contented myself with reading an article on "how to be a better kisser."

While I was waiting, one of the hairstylists, a tall black woman who was rather severe-looking, finished cutting the hair of this girl in front of me. I watched as she rung her up at the counter. The girl was your typical blond, Abercrombie-wearing teenager, and as she ruffled her wet, curly strawberry blond hair in an attempt to make it drier (or poofier, I'm not sure), the hairstylist looked at her as if she could tell the girl wasn't entirely satisfied with it. "Turn around," the hairstylist ordered, and after a bit of scrunity said, "It looks good."

"I'm just not used to having it this short," the girl said. (Her hair wasn't short. It was below her shoulder.)

"You told me to take an inch and a half off, and that's what I did," said the hairstylist matter-of-factly, as she handed back the change. "Have a good holiday weekend, and come back and see us again," she said, not particularly cheerfully.

She walked back to her chair, and I thought to myself, "I hope I don't get her." A nicer-looking Hispanic lady, short and brown-haired, poked her head out from behind a wall. "Have you signed in?" she asked me.

"Yes," I replied, and she said, "I'll be right with you." But after a few minutes she had disappeared somewhere, and the black lady came back, looking at me and a young girl who was sitting on the chairs, waiting for her dad to pick her up.

"Neither of you need haircuts, right?"

"I do," I said, standing up.

"Oh," she said. She talked so quickly and so brusquely that it took me a few tries before I understood that she was asking for my name.

"Jennifer," I replied, and pointed to it on the sheet. She crossed me off, and motioned for me to follow her.

"Do you need a shampoo?" she asked.

"Um..." I hesitated. Do I need a shampoo? No, I suppose not. Do I want a shampoo? Sure, if you're going to charge me the same price for it as if I didn't get one. But I didn't say that.

"Do you need a shampoo?" she repeated, impatiently.

"No, that's okay," I said finally.

"Are you sure?" she asked, and I nodded affirmation. Fingering the ends of my hair, she asked me how I wanted it cut. "I'd just like it chin-length, with a little bit of layers..."

But she cut me off: "Come over here. I'm just going to wet your hair down." She directed me over to the sinks, and I sat quietly as she wet my hair, splashing some water on my clothes in the process, and ran some conditioner through it. She wrapped it in a towel and said, "Hold this," as she walked me back over to the chair.

She asked me again, "Now how do you want it cut?" I started to explain again, but she said, "Honey, I have no idea what you want." I tried again, meekly explaining that I basically just wanted a chin-length bob.

"Okay, I got it," she said finally, though I wasn't sure she got it at all. She started sweeping my hair up in clips.

After a silence, I added, "I'm going to Europe in a week, and I just want something... low-maintenance." We chatted a little about study abroad and where I went to school, but I was a little intimidated by her, and I was also still sick and not feeling well, so it wasn't long before I fell silent again. So she started talking with the other hairstylists, and soon was ranting about one of her coworkers.

"Close up the register for me, will you? I've been the one always closing up lately, and I don't want to go home late today. I've got to get home to my father, take care of him. The only reason Sarah gets away with working only one day a week is because no one enforces the hours. She's so irresponsible; we all have to cover for her."

I listened to her angry diatribe, sitting quietly as she pulled the comb roughly through my hair. She was hurting my head, a little, but I didn't say anything. When she was done cutting my hair, she stepped back to look at her work. I straightened up quickly in my chair and said, "That's looks good, thank you."

She took the blowdryer and blew some of the hair off my shirt. "Yes, it does. Layers look cute on you." Then she said, "I just gave you a $40 haircut for $13. I just wanted you to know that."

"Thank you," I said, because I didn't know what else to say. I stood up and watched as she took the broom and swept up my hair.

"Go up to the counter and have your money ready, I'll be there in a second," she said. After she finished sweeping up, she walked over to the window, where she switched off the OPEN light hanging on the window. She came over, and I handed her a $20-bill. She typed some stuff into the computer, and then did the same thing as she did with the girl before. "Turn around," she said, surveying the back. "I want to make sure it's even. That'll be thirteen dollars."

I turned back around. "You can just give me three dollars back," I said.

"Thank you," she said, seeming to appreciate my generous tip. "My name is Betty. Come back and see us."

"Thanks," I replied, and added, "Have a good Memorial Day weekend."

I thought I saw her brighten up a little. "You have a great day, too," she called after me, in the most pleasant voice I'd heard her use yet. "Enjoy yourself in Europe."

19 pieces of email today,

19 pieces of email today, all spam. Fuck, this is depressing.

May 23, 2003

Today I learned about the

Today I learned about the Baroque Period and the Neoplatonists, had lunch with Pam, consoled my sister about her yearbook having been stolen, bought two new shirts and a pair of shoes. And got sick.

May 18, 2003

Right now I'm watching VH1's

Right now I'm watching VH1's 50 Greatest Women of the Video Era. VH1's "best of" lists are always addicting, but this is especially good stuff. It's cleansing the angst I built up earlier, as I was watching Medical Detectives on TLC. Stupid criminals! Stupid cops! It's always frustrating when I can't decide who's to blame.

It's been an eventful weekend.

It's been an eventful weekend. Maybe I'll write about it tomorrow, but for now, I'm too pooped. I've been recovering--napping, watching TV, reading--for a good part of today. And now, I think I'm going to go play with some old Lego sets that I unearthed from underneath my bed while I was cleaning my room. Go, Space Police!

May 15, 2003

Inefficiency is my middle name!

Inefficiency is my middle name!

May 10, 2003

Being on dial-up wreaks havoc

Being on dial-up wreaks havoc on my relatively normal sleeping schedule. It's so much more of a hassle to get online (turn on computer, start up AOL, sign onto my screenname, start up Internet Explorer) that it's not worth it unless I can be online for at least an hour or two at a time. And since we only have one line, I can only really do that without tying up the phone when it's late at night. Bah!

All right, all right, I'm getting offline.

May 07, 2003

I was moving pieces of

I was moving pieces of my futon out to the car this past Sunday, and I ran into one of my residents, Kristine, and her boyfriend Shawn, in the parking lot by my dorm. I was a bit surprised to see them, because Kristine had already checked out earlier in the week, but it turned out that she had spent the weekend helping Shawn move. Now they were both getting ready to finally leave campus and go home--Kristine to Alpharetta, and Shawn to Macon. I was still in helpful-PL mode at that point, so the first thing I asked Kristine was, "Do you need to get back into the dorm?"

She shook her head, looked at me in that you-silly-girl sort of way, and said, "No, I just wanted to say goodbye to you!" So we hugged, I wished them both a good summer and assured Kristine that I'd definitely see her next year, and went back into the dorm to get some more stuff to load into my car.

When I came back out, the two of them were still there, standing next to Shawn's car, hugging each other tightly, not wanting to leave. I called to them, jokingly, as I walked by, "You'll see each other over the summer!"

Kristine called back, "I know, I know!", but then buried her head back in Shawn's shoulder. I left them alone, but back in my room five minutes later, I looked out my window to see them still there. And I surprised myself by being touched by their display of affection. I even thought about emailing the two of them, and for a moment I stood in my room, my stuff still half-packed around me, mentally starting to compose the email:

Kristine and Shawn,

I know you guys are sad about leaving Tech and each other, but it only gets better during the summer. At the risk of sounding like your mother--what they say about absence making the heart grow fonder is true. You'll learn not to take your relationship for granted: it'll be a pleasant surprise when you get phone calls from each other, or when you both happen to get online at the same time. You'll plan the days you'll visit each other, and because of that, those days will be even more fun, because you'll have reserved them for each other and nothing else. And two hours is not a long way to drive when it's someone that you really want to see. Believe me, I know.

--Jennifer

...but then I decided that an email would be way too nosy, and geeky.


Today I'm making the trip up to Athens to see Alan. It's not the first time I've visited him at home... but somehow, I feel as excited as if it were.

May 06, 2003

It's been a good past

It's been a good past couple of days.

So I'm back at home, in Alpharetta. I finally started moving out of the dorms on Sunday afternoon, and finally got back home around 1 a.m. Monday morning. Since I work for housing, I had to stay the entire weekend, in order to check people out of their rooms, help clean up the dorm, etc. I thought it would be sort of a bummer--being here after almost everyone else had moved out, missing Music Midtown--but in the end, it somehow turned out to be very fulfilling. It reminded me, in some ways, of opening again; since I didn't have work and school to worry about, I really felt like housing staff, not PL-student-coop all at once. And I think that because of that, this weekend I was a better PL than the rest of the girls on my staff. While most of them were concerned with packing up and leaving, or partying with friends before school ended, I mostly hung around the dorm, volunteering to take care of some extra checkouts so that they could go do their own things. I went out of my way for my residents as well: Nicole was ready to check out several hours earlier than the time she had signed up for, so I took off work to check her out so that she wouldn't have to wait; I offered time and carspace to help Karen move from the dorm to her sorority. It felt good to be useful, and helpful, and just a presence on the hall; people knew they could come to me if they had questions or needed something, because I would be there.

So it was a good conclusion to a year where I wasn't always sure whether I was doing a good job as a PL. I realized, as everyone was checking out this weekend and I had to say goodbye to all my residents, that it's okay if I'm not best friends with all the girls. What I can be sure of is that next year, when we see each other walking around campus, we will definitely say hi, maybe even stop to chat a little bit if neither of us are in too big of a rush. A few I have become good friends with--four of my girls are living together in a suite next year, and I'll definitely make it a point to stop by and visit them. But for the others, I think they all view me as a genuinely nice, caring person, who made their freshman year at least a tiny bit better--and that's good enough for me.

It's also the same way with housing staff. It's funny, because one of the great things about housing is how many people you get to know. But at the same time, despite the fact that "staff development" is such an important element of housing, I've always worried about the superficiality of it all. Sometimes the very emphasis we put on staff development sort of undermines the fact that you can't make people become close to each other; you can't make people want to spend time together. So all year I've wondered whether after it was all over, and we've moved to different dorms and staffs for next year, that... that would be it. But Friday night I went out to dinner with Pam, my PA, and then later, I forewent several hours of sleep to go to see X2 with the staff of Smith 4th floor, a neighboring guys' dorm. And when you hang out with people outside of the context of programs and section activities, I think it's a good sign that you'll keep in touch with them. So I'm happy about that.

Anyway, enough rambling about housing. It was a good weekend. I've been at home for two days now, and I still haven't started to unpack my things. It doesn't feel like summer, yet.